Well my teeth are out and after a few days of jello and soup I am feeling fine. To my knowledge I was not one of the overly funny coming out of surgery however I do remember my bottom lip being frozen and trying to make fishy faces then asking my Mum if I looked like a fish. I also told her that it was fun and could we do it again. Apparently for the first hour my foggy brain had very little concept of pain.
As my departure date comes closer I find myself getting more and more nervous. It will not be the first time that I have travelled overseas, but it will be my first time travelling alone. My current prayer is that I will find myself sitting next to a class mate. I know that there are five other Canadians going, and I am so hoping that one of them will be on the same flight as myself. I will not be at all surprised if God answers this prayer. When I left B.C I knew that it would take a miracle for everything to work out if I were to go to Uganda and since I have been home God has not stopped working. I feel so unworthy of all the ways he has blessed me. As I am a fairly independent person it is at times hard for me to accept all the blessings that God has been pouring out, and I have needed to be reminded more than once that if God has laid it on anthers heart to help me in any way I need to accept that help graciously.
Yesterday I finally made it to the city and after a day of shopping I think I am finally ready to go ( minus a few small things ) and my Christmas shopping is done. It was an amazing day spent with my cousins in the morning talking about their past experiences in Africa and then a laughter filled afternoon as another friend drove down to Red Deer from Edmonton to shop with me before I leave. I am sure that after all our giggling and talking the stores we entered will never be the same.
With Christmas in 3 days and my departure in 12 I am so looking forward to seeing my family as they begin to come home tonight. Looking back on the year I am realise how far I have come, and I know that no matter where life takes me in these next six months God will be with me. He is faithful and will never leave my side, His love prevents it.
I sooo understand what you mean about having a tough time accepting God's blessings! I have a terrible time with that! When I broke my ankle 2 years ago God really worked in my heart though & helped me to see that if I prevent other people from blessing me, then I'm stopping them from being blessed by giving (did that make any sense?). It still takes conscious effort for me, but I'm working on it:)
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